I am happy to say

vicious-delicious:

that I am officially OK with her being out of my life! I wish she was out of his life too, but that will never happen now.

who are we speaking of??

One year ago today..

vicious-delicious:

I had a talk with my husband about how bad I wanted a baby. We got in a fight over how bad he wanted to wait.

Little did either of us know, that I was already pregnant.

Little did either of us know, that 3 days later I was going to lose that baby.

Little did either of us know, that 5 days later I would almost be dead.

Little did either of us know, that my heart would be broken for the rest of my life.

Little did either of us know, that our first child was never going to make it.

Little did either of us know, that a year later I wouldn’t have heald one tiny little bit.

Little did either of us know, that a year later I would still be crying my eyes out every time I thought about what happened.

Little does anyone know that right now, I almost wish I did die rather than have to deal with this alone.

I hate my life right now. I’m going to go hide in my closet for the next week.

Honey….I know you are struggling.  I don’t know how to help.  Just know a few things.

1.  I LOVE YOU!!

2. I am always here for you!

3. You are so strong!

4. You are BEAUTIFUL!

5. You are amazingly awesome!

I love you Kare Bear!!  Stay stong.  Remember, you are NOT alone.  You have many people that love you SO MUCH!

xoxoxoxox

Crossed off what I've done.

vicious-delicious:

ranga-sauce:

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Been dumped.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

@ this moment...

vicious-delicious:

effinrockinsocks:

vicious-delicious:

• i am hungry
• there are too many people i hate at my house
• i am stuck in my bedroom, alone, as usual
• i miss my husband, severely
• i am disgusted with myself
• i am not happy :/

@ this moment

I MISS YOU

I LOVE YOU

I HAVE FAITH IN YOU

I AM ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU!!!

thanks darlin… :]

anytime love!!!  :]

@ this moment...

vicious-delicious:

• i am hungry
• there are too many people i hate at my house
• i am stuck in my bedroom, alone, as usual
• i miss my husband, severely
• i am disgusted with myself
• i am not happy :/

@ this moment

I MISS YOU

I LOVE YOU

I HAVE FAITH IN YOU

I AM ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU!!!